Today, the same as any other, or every other day.

Aaron got his tire fixed. He kicked dempsey out for about 20 min. yeasterday. i was so fucking mad. Im cool now though. I had to take a min to calm down my nerves and smoke a stress blunt. its all about the blunts. lol. I really enjoy my job. I work with alot of intresting people. and miss apathy. shes the greatest friend I have ever had. she was at my house when i was actually fighting with aaron. My hands feel weak and my knuckles are brused. I got a cut on my arm from the window. it already had a crack in it so i dont see a big deal. all he did was call the landlord and told him someone tryed to break in. seeing that he lives on the edge of crack-ville It was totally legit. better than him saying "yeah i got a crazyass girlfriend who got pissed and kicked out my window.

2am.

Up all night as usual. Listening to tool. Aaron pissed me off . tonight its not new.

I have all these things built up in my mind that i want to say to him. Things that i just need to say anyway. I don't know why i cant.

what can i do?

i dont have shit without you

im shit when im with you

I cant get all these things in my  mind straight.

right now all i feel is fucking hate.

2.31am

still listening to tool.

Today was the same as anyother day...

Aaron work me up at 6 am before he had to go to work. After he left Brooke called and chilled for a little while. She had to babysit this lil kid. he was like 11 and asked me if i wanted to go swim with them..i was like sure.. i didnt know that the kid was a lil shit head. I dont like to get my fucking head wet and he kept splashing at me and fuckin with me. i was getting pissed. It started raining and i was like thank god for jesus i can get the fuck away from this kid. after that i hung out with chelsea for a while. and that was about it. I have to work from 4 till 9 tomorrow night.

I havent went to my drug class in about 4 or 5 weeks. I really dont need to go seeing as how im not using drugs.

The other day dani & robin invited me to there dinner adventure party and i have to say it was one of the best times ive had hanging out with deadbodies and abandon'd houses.

Kym is still faithful to rob even though he is still in bootcamp, and he'll be there for about another 2 or 3 months. I know thats a bitch.

This is the 1st xanga ive had in about 2 years. mostly because i didnt have the money for one. but fuck it now.