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Monday, 04 June 2007

now i feel like a bitch.. just a little.

Dempsey was over here washing clothes and shit and I have been mean to him for about 2 weeks now. hes anoying as fuck. but we were over here chillin, i was showing him how to do some internet stuff and aaron called and said that dempseys grandmas new husband had just died. and dempsey was all sad and cryin in shit. I felt bad for a min. then i was like shit, people die every day. thats why i feel like a bitch.
Currently Listening
American Made Music to Strip By
By Rob Zombie
thunderkiss 65
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Living like this is a full-time buisness.

Today, the same as any other, or every other day.
Aaron got his tire fixed. He kicked dempsey out for about 20 min. yeasterday. i was so fucking mad. Im cool now though. I had to take a min to calm down my nerves and smoke a stress blunt. its all about the blunts. lol. I really enjoy my job. I work with alot of intresting people. and miss apathy. shes the greatest friend I have ever had. she was at my house when i was actually fighting with aaron. My hands feel weak and my knuckles are brused. I got a cut on my arm from the window. it already had a crack in it so i dont see a big deal. all he did was call the landlord and told him someone tryed to break in. seeing that he lives on the edge of crack-ville It was totally legit. better than him saying "yeah i got a crazyass girlfriend who got pissed and kicked out my window.
Currently Listening
Unplugged
By Alice in Chains
down in a hole
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it was time to break some shit.

so I put my foot thru aarons bedroom window.
its a long story but thats what it lead down to.
once again. its 2am.
Last night was horrible.

Sunday, 03 June 2007

favors will kill you faster than bullets

2am.
Up all night as usual. Listening to tool. Aaron pissed me off . tonight its not new.
I have all these things built up in my mind that i want to say to him. Things that i just need to say anyway. I don't know why i cant.

what can i do?
i dont have shit without you
im shit when im with you
I cant get all these things in my mind straight.
right now all i feel is fucking hate.

2.31am

still listening to tool.

Thursday, 31 May 2007

Currently Listening
Music to Start a Cult To
By Gram Rabbit
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Society has found a way to drag me down..

Aaron just left. Im getting ready for work. Im giving layla to amandas little sister. Layla is my guiniea pig. shes a year old. and sexy. I feel bad for not having the time to take care of her personally. I know amandas family will show her love. If sir henry (amandas cat) doesnt eat her.gauging ears hurts son. Im in a certian mood that i can not describe.
I have makeup on.
Me and aaron bought some salvia from http://www.salviaworld.com . it should be here monday. smoke that shit and see what happends. Daniel always told me about it.
I have to be at work at 4 pm. its like 3:15 now.poop im tired. I hope I make some good tips tonight. every since ive been "on my own" as you could say I feel like everyday is a friday night. sometimes thats good. sometimes its not. Its just a constant state of euphoria i try to create to keep me in a good mood.
I was happy when i found out that danii took the same kind of "crazy kid medication shit" that i do. Feels good not to be the only crazy bitch.
I can see layla looking at me thru the window.
i hope she doesnt know that im taking her to amandas tomorrow. she would be so upset with me.